What a difficult thing – humility.
I believe most of us don’t even know what the word actually means. I know I didn’t. The reason why I’m writing this post is that today – January 1st – in addition to being New Year 2019, it is also the Solemnity of Mary the Mother of God. I’ve gotten to know her much more in 2018 and one thing that I’ve learned is that she is the most humble human being I’ve ever encountered. Lord, how I would love to have the humility of Mary.
To be humble is to know exactly who you are in the eyes of God – nothing more, nothing less. This means that I don’t see myself as better as someone else, but that I also am not less than anyone else. This was who Mary was. Perfectly, humble. Mary would not the Queen of Heaven if it weren’t for her Son – and she knows this. So much so that during apparitions she appears with baby Jesus or pregnant.
When I found out what the real definition of humility was, my first reaction was, “crap, I’m def not humble.” Not because I think I’m the best thing since sliced bread, but quite the opposite. I often don’t think I’m good enough. I’m the toughest critique of myself. In one way, that’s ok because I keep wanting to be better, but it’s not ok if I think I’m less than who I am. Both – believing you are above or below someone – involves pride. Because pride is believing you know more than your creator, aka God.
Where are we on the Humility Scale:
A humble soul does not trust itself, but places all its confidence in God. God defends the humble soul and lets Himself into its secrets, and the soul abides in unsurpassable happiness which no one can comprehend. (Diary of St. Faustina, 593)
Do you criticize yourself? Are you not pretty enough? Is your body not Kim Kardashian enough? Is your hair not Beyonce enough? Is your wardrobe not JLo enough? Well, me either, but I can guarantee you that Kim, Bey and Jen aren’t Fanny enough. Because they aren’t supposed to be. My struggle is continuously reminding myself that I am exactly who I’m supposed to be and I just have to work through my faults.
What about the opposite of that? You may think, “Well, I’m not a very prideful person.” I guarantee that we all are. Anything you’ve done against another involves pride. Gossip involves pride because a person needs to feel superior to another in order to talk badly. What about anger or having a short temper? That involves pride because it lends to the notion that the other person is lower so he/she deserves a retaliation. These are all common and dangerous things that can shift our humility above the scale.
So, 2019 resolution: Be who I’m supposed to be in the eyes of God – NOT in the eyes of the world or those on social media or in my own eyes. We are not perfect but we are worth it.
Stay humble my friends.